Yes, im sick. I got the coughs and im freezing up in this house. NO heater cuz my mom thinks ill get more sick. But shes going crazy here so i just turned it on. I was basially on this computer the whole day working on stuff.
Now that everythings different,
it gets me thinking.
is it gunna be like this from now on?
when you think you find out the answer.
you let me know cuz i wanna know.
He answered my question. It isnt. Things have changed after this convo we had.
&so he seys...
"i dont want to lose you over this and im sorry that im so silent everytime so lets try and not be like this all the time i want things to work out for us."
& i say...
"loosing someone is easy.
But keeping them is even harder."
Maybe you are loosing me day by day. im trying my damn hardest to keep you here by my side and just be with you. But i just hate relationships where it makes me think. it makes me sad. and i dont like being sad when im with someone. i wanna be happy with this person 24/7 and so far its not happening. it seems like a hard job tryna keep someone. i know im making it hard for you and im sorry for that i just didnt wanna hold it in forever. i needa tell you how i feel if this relationship is gunna work so yeauh i love you and always have and will but to just keep this relationship work we just needa work harder. im not even gunna lie; you are loosing me day by day but we can fix it if we just try. i miss the old us. never fighting. just getting to know eachother. just being with you. and i just miss everything.
Now that we talked things out errthang be good as a fat kid got his chocolate after a year. Preettyy great now. So i work on his damn bday presant and i started at what? 2:38! damn fuck my life. This presant better be flippin worth it -.- But he prolly will appreciate it.
&So i have homework. But thats not due till friday. Its just a math project. Ill prolly start on it tomorrow so i have this day to work on it. But good thang i didnt have anything else. Im about to finish my book after this. Then take a test tomorrow. Then ill be done with my points! i think...WOOHOO!
Last night ashley met Jacob. Im sad. I never met him and im terribly desperate to see this guy! Damn. But whatever. I got my man with me :] and i am happy with him. Well fer right now -.- JK! love you babe. :P So yeauh now i needa shower. BYE!
oh BTW; thanks for the ideas breanna.
BTW2; you too mikee :]
Frances Roldan
