So lately...

the friends situation isnt really going the right path right now. Especially Best Friend which i dont even think we even are best friends anymore. All she does is talk and talk to ______ and im soo tired of it already. She hasnt even really been there for me as much and she isnt even herself anymore. I dont even know what the hell happened to her. But ever since she hung out with ______ shes like a nicer clone of her but still a bitch. OH and theyre like what now SISTERS?! yeauh. okay thanks for letting me have a friend now. you know who the hell you are. I dont wanna start shit with you its just the fact that like DOODE i wanna have a bestfriend that i can always go to but i guess you cant accept that? Cause obviously you stole mine.

the groups are breaking apart. JAK'F its more like JAF and kirsten is like a replacement. I dont even know whats the point of this group anymore cuz obviously theres drama between some of the people in this group and just have an on and off friendship and im tired of that too. Kirstes is no longer happenin. Fliptards are still good until next year is what us girls are scared of. But yeauh to be honest the only bestfriend i have with me right now is Krystal and Danielle.

&the boyfriend is almost over. Im scared. Things like this dont even happen till like after a year but to us its only been a month and a half. Fighting like this has been going preetty overboard. Just ever since last week with our parents things just been Fights all day everyday. Im just honesly scared of loosing him. Hes really precious to me. Hes the only friend i got right now. Ive been thinking like are we gunna last? When are we ever gunna stop fighting? When are we gunna be happy again? I know ive been a REALLY bad girlfriend lately but you just needa know what going on with me. I really do love you and care for you more than anything in the world. You are my Life now and i dont want that to go away. I just wanna go somewhere and stay away from my life right now. But thanks for still keeping this relationship going. If me and you gave up then we wouldnt even be together still. Love you.

So basically life been hella bad. and i just needed to vent.

Goals: Save up money.
Find new friends.
Stop fighting.
kepp my goals.
Stick to new years resolution.
avoid jayvin breaking up with me :]